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星期二, 8月 26, 2008

人生,是一連串的選擇

昨天中午,和 B 先生一邊吃午餐、一邊討論要選的家具、電器時,腦袋裡突然浮現電影「猜火車」(Trainspotting) 的開場白:

Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin' else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who needs reasons when you've got heroin?

當然啦,最後一句就免了。

建立一個家,著實不太容易。準備婚禮,要挑飯店、挑喜帖、挑婚紗店、挑衣服、挑照片、挑戒指、挑首飾、整理賓客名單、挑菜色,像我們這種平常都住家裡,到了結婚才開始準備住處,還要挑裝潢 (其實只不過是粉刷顏色、地磚、門、燈具等等) 、挑家具、挑電器... 這時便很感謝爸媽們,讓我們暫時可以省去挑房子的煩惱。不過,我想這些還都是小事,要是有了小孩,大概才算得上是忙碌人生的開始...

前陣子才笑著說,人生是一連串的大冒險呢。現在一連串的大冒險,一下子變成了一連串的選擇題。


題外話,跟著這段話同時浮現在腦海的,是電影中 Renton 嗑藥嗑到被包在毯子裡拖進醫院時的背景音樂 "Perfect Day" ,那種濃濃的諷刺。從猜火車開始,一直都很喜歡 Danny Boyle 電影的調調。但最近電視上播的「太陽浩劫」(Sunshine) ,卻有點不夠味了。

4 則留言:

  1. 是啊!!
    一直都在選擇,選擇~~~

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  2. 有了小孩後責任會更大

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  3. 可我在這個時候就會開始猶豫不定
    直到現在還在焦灼狀態
    選擇還是不選擇.....

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  4. to 小咪:
    是啊,都是選擇。最近不管是工作或是生活,都是這樣。
    難怪之前有前輩說,沒辦法下決定的話,就擲茭吧 XD

    to 焦糖:
    雖說如此,還是很想要小孩啊~~~

    to foxpapago:
    我在下決定之前,也很容易猶豫不定呢。
    只是有些事情,只會在一開頭的時候猶豫,接下來的發展就順其自然了...
    或許是想豁出去了,或許是信任...

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